Say it isn't so!

So -  I am in sort of a pickle. Summer is coming up, and in the Chattaway house, summer means "MOVIES!"

Not going to the movies, but rather "Making movies." Since we will finally have the time to.

We are not pro's by any means, but we love it anyways.

So the other day comes along and I ask, "So what movies are we going to do this summer?"
I ask this, because we have a list of movies we plan on doing. (movie ideas really.)

Want to know their response? "None!" WTF????? What do they mean none. This is what we do, to pass the time!!!!! I collect myself and ask. "Why? Are you guys too old now?" Praying they are just joking and we are really going to make movies, because I really am not ready to give up playing with them yet.  They reply, and rather bitterly so.

"No. We are just tired of being the only ones on film. You're never in the movies. The whole idea of making movies as a family is that we are ALL in them!" The two youngest agreed sternly.

Are you freaking kidding me? I am not meant to be in front of a camera, I am meant to be behind it. It is where I am comfortable. I don't even know how to act!

So I am torn. Do I (A) Make a fool of myself in front of friends and family and who ever "Stranger wise" Pops along, so that I can force them to do the entire list this summer. Or (B) Skip out on making movies this summer completely.

I really want to make movies with them, but I do not have the slightest clue on what I could possibly do by myself.
At the risk of sounding like a two year old throwing a tantrum. "This is so unfair!"

I have this guy I know, known him since childhood, back in my school daze! Anyway, he does these one man skits. He's sort of funny. But I am not. I lack the funny! My funny has people hearing crickets.

Anyone out there have any ideas? Any? What can a mom with NO acting skills what so ever, do to, to appease their side of the deal? 

Today has been a productive day otherwise. Most of my shoots are caught up - Editing is finally slowing down. Which makes life a little less stressful.
This morning started off surprisingly well. No  fights out of the girls about getting up and getting ready for school.
Honestly - I was so caught up in completing tasks, I didn't stop to realize just how smooth today truly went. WOW, I had a good day you guys!

I'm in the process of making supper now, nothing healthy and I'm okay with that. I am so tired of salads. I deserve something bad that just tastes good! Chili cheese dogs and tater tots! I am sure tomorrow I will be kicking myself in the butt for it. Adding a few extra steps, a few extra kettle bell swings, etc.  But tonight ... It's whats in order.

Speaking of dinner, I better get back into the kitchen before the smoke alarm goes off. I swear - CPI security hates when I am cooking! Damn smoke alarms!

Have a great one everyone! Do something that makes you smile! xxDee

On a mission - a secret mission.

It's been such a long weekend, and it has only just begun. SORRY for the mass overload of product reviews. I like to get those out of the way once I have tried them, that way I do not forget. (I tend to forget a lot of things lately.) Also, you get penalized for not getting them done on time. So, since I love free stuff, I decided, the earlier I get them done, the better.

I have been up to my eyeballs in editing. Mainly shoot work. I forgot how tedious the editing part is. I love the shooting. I love to be behind my camera, the editing part. Not so much. But you gotta do what you gotta do.

So I am on a mission. A sort of secret mission that I wanna share with you guys. Especially since I am thinking about blogging out the whole process.
My marriage. I am married to my best friend, and like all relationships - they come with flaws. I am sure that this relationship is more flawed then him or I would care to admit, and I haven't a clue on where to set things straight.
He said once, while we sat watching Nichole Kidman, dolled up in a blonde wig, tricking the community of Step-ford  CT. "The step-ford wives. "Why can't you be more like those wives."

It made me think. Is that what guys really want? Some dolled up blonde in a dress, who doesn't speak unless spoken to? Who doesn't have her own opinion, whose only goal in life is to please her husband?
SIGH .... I am sure more than one of you men out there said "Well - yeah!"

I am thinking about undergoing a sort of challenge. A step-ford challenge. 31 days of being a step-ford wife.
I am not particularly sure how this will go, seeing how I am very opinionated and I am not sure if I can just- simply be quiet.
But I am thinking, I might just give this a go. I might fail, but then, I might pin  point some areas that need help. Areas that I might otherwise not see.

If and when I do this and I believe that I will, I will provide a link in my blog, to a separate blog which will be invisible to my husband. So that those who wish to follow along. May do so.

I am obviously going to have to do some research and see what the rules of  being a step ford wife are, but my goal is getting started by May.
Lets just see if Nick really wants a step-ford wife.

Other than that - today has been a pretty good day. I made chocolate covered strawberries and banana's - the only thing I wish I would have done was get the darned house clean. But chilling with my three mini me's seemed more important.

Here is hoping that you guys all have a great night. xxDee

Microfiber Cleaning Towels (5 Pack) Review

Hello spring and everything that comes with it (Including) Good old fashioned car washing's! My husband is notorious for babying his vehicle. Which means, hours of out in the driveway with all the latest creams and soaps, interior wipes. etc.

This year being even worse, with him having gotten his new baby and all. 

One thing that we do not really enjoy with the spring is all the pollen. The dust. etc. 

North Carolina spring goes a lot like this - Oh, you just washed your car? Poor baby. Spits green pollen dust all over. 

Now these cloths, are bigger than any of the ones that we have gotten from local stores like, Target or the good old dollar store. Which I honestly think is great for covering more surface area. 

The suck up the water pretty good and they do leave a streak free shine. 

BUT WHAT WE LOVE THEM BEST FOR - Turns out, isn't the car wash. It is for wiping the pollen off the car in the morning. (Dry cloth) 

He loves these for Dusting the inside. and they work pretty good. Normally we use bounty paper towels or old dish cloths, but these are just amazing. They do not leave anything behind.

This particular set comes in a five pack. Shhhh! (I stole 2 from Nicholas.) 

Turns out these are great for dusting inside.

I have allergies to cleaners so having a dry cloth that works better than a wash cloth soaked in spray cleaners, makes life pretty fantastic. 

I use one for house cleaning. 

The other I found - is great for cleaning off computer screens, TV's, phones, tablets ...etc. I use the other on all the electronics. 

They do not lie either. They are washable. I have bought some that say they are washable, but then get all harsh feeling. Not soft like they once were, etc. These are exactly like they were before the wash. Which is an added bonus for me. Because It means I will have to replace them less. 

I did get this set free in return for my unbiased review - do I recommend these? Yes, without a doubt. Nick will say they are great for the car, I will say they make housework simple! 

For my house, 5 isn't enough. So I will be adding a few more sets to the household. You can get your own set by clicking on the link Microfiber Cloths 

Silicone Gloves for Cooking and Baking Review.

Hi guys, just Dee here with another product review. I am telling you. If you love free, then you will love Tomoson

This time we are checking out these cool silicone gloves for cooking and baking.

These are heat resistant up to 425 degrees.
and because I like to press limits, I decided to test it a little farther.


First thing I noticed, is that these are different than my other set of gloves. There was no interior lining. Which makes for easier clean up - but I was worried about the durability of them. So I was a little nervous when trying these out.


The little dot grips are awesome. Not only can you take pots and pans, in and out of the oven etc. without worrying about your hands slipping - But - It made for great jar opening gloves as well. Which came in handy when my craving for pickles hit me full tilt.


I started off at a lesser degree than 425 to calm my nerves. I should also mention, that I did not treat these gloves normal. (Normally) when someone takes something out of the oven, it is a quick process. You take it out, you typically sit it on top of the stove.
However, I decided to see how long I could hold it before feeling any type of heat.

325 - I could hold no problem for about a minute and a half. (Making pans from oven to table an easy task)
425- It was about 45 seconds before I felt the heat through the gloves. (Which comes on with the feeling of holding a hot microwaved rag.) I realize that 45 seconds doesn't seem long. But in the scheme of things, 45 seconds is a lot longer than it seems.

450, things got dodge. You do not want to be holding anything from an over at 450 for longer than 25-30 seconds. But still I was impressed.  These babies are only supposed to go up to 425. and taking something out of the oven at 450, (if set down at normal speeds instead of holding and waiting to see when the heat strikes) You could still get away with using them at the higher temp. There was no melting, or any damage done at all during any part of my experiment.


For normal use, at temps 425 and below, these are some pretty good gloves. If you would like a pair, you can get yours Here

Clearviewlight Camping Headlamp Set Review + GIVEAWAY!

Okay, I have never in my life been so impressed with such a tiny piece of equipment. I received this dandy little headlamp free - through Tomoson in return for my unbiased review.

First off, this little guy is amazing!

I felt a little funny, a lot like I resembled one of the guys from ghost busters, but it grows on you. Pretty soon, you wont even realize that you are wearing it.

This baby came in handy when our area had a power outage. I couldn't find the candles and this helped tremendously.
I also use this a lot when I take Marley (our dog) Out into the woods.

It has a few different light levels, that allows your light to last longer. etc.

For the price. This is something useful to have!

For something so small, you can actually see pretty far in front of you. The red light portion of it, is a little scary for my taste, but that is only because I watch too many scary movies.

If you are an avid boy scout or a camper, or even a hiker, or someone who just likes to wonder around outside. This can and will definitely come in handy! Could be great for working under a car, Attics and craw spaces. etc. It is a pretty nifty little light to have.
Please do grab yourself one here : ClearViewLight camping headlamp

I am hosting a giveaway of this product. IF YOU WANT THIS -  You should be aware that a valid USA mailing address will need to be provided in a timely fashion.
WANT IT ?? Be the first person to comment on this blog or on my shared post on Facebook, and this is all yours!

CONGRATS : Rafael Velez Jr : From Facebook. 

Please, I do host giveaways and I think it could be easier for people to win there. Feel free to add me on facebook!  My FaceBook

3 in 1 Interchangeable Derma Roller Kit Review.

Okay, so I am approaching my mid thirties, and like most women out there, I am concerned about looking young. Keeping the wrinkles at bay - maybe even erasing a few. Also sitting snug in the back of my mind are those pesky stretchmarks from enjoying the miracle of life.

The product I am trying now, is supposed to help with all of those things and more! 

So imagine my excitement when I got chose on Tomoson to try this product free. 

I have never in my life been to the spa for face or treatments of the skin in any capacity. 

For those of you out there who have never heard of these sort of treatments or maybe just doesn't know what this product does ...

It is a Micro needling type therapy. Used to help 

acne scar's, cellulite reduction, stretch mark removal, anti aging, sun and age spot repair, wrinkle elimination, collagen stimulation, and a lot more. All with the swift roll of a wand. 

You can check it out for yourself  Puruskin Derma Roller

I have to admit that when the package arrived I was immediately impressed. A little intimidated as well.  The package comes with a wand, and three different sized heads- all in sterile plastic packaging.  I went with the 1.0mm needle size. 

It tells you on the box which sized head works best with what you are trying to accomplish. 

I was afraid at first. I am terrified of needles and this thing looked like it came strait out of the horror flick (Hellraiser) My first thought was pinhead. 

I read all directions carefully, downloaded the book and put on my determined face. I was going to try this no matter how scary it looked. I want those marks GONE! 

I will not lie, it states on the box that you will feel slight discomfort. I did not notice on my thighs at first. (My thighs have slight stretch marks due to weight gain during pregnancy.) Actually it just felt like I was lightly scratching my nails over my skin. I slapped on a combination of Vitamin C serum and Vitamin E oil, pulled up my pants and went about my day. It was a little less than a minute when I noticed a slight burn. (It feels like razor burn after shaving your legs.) Not intolerable, but definitely noticeable.

I have been doing this in the same spot for the past week and a half. 

I also graduated from my thigh to my face. I noticed the discomfort instantly on my face. It is not intolerable, but it isn't exactly pleasant. 

I didn't exactly have a plan when it came to my face, my only thought was - if I did the whole thing, then maybe I will just look younger. 

The discomfort after you finish - feels a lot like the burn your ears feel after just getting them pierced. Just sort of eh, not so pleased, but not in pain, mixed with a hot sensation. 

The third place I have been using this is on my tummy (again) trying to rid myself of my baby battle wounds. 

I will start with my face: I didn't have a lot of wrinkles yet to begin with, however - the ones I did have (crows feet) have lessened. Even when I smile, they are less noticeable.  I did break out really bad with acne after doing this, however I chalk that up to "it gets worse before it gets better." My face also did that with proactive before it got better. Today, I have maybe two or three pimples (again) I believe that is just do to hormones for this time of month.  I notice a difference in my tone. My face is normally splotchy. Red patches here and there, different skin tones in other places, now it seems more even toned. The giant red dot I had left on my chin from a pimple I couldn't resist, is almost non-see'able. 

My thighs, I did notice a huge difference there! The stretch marks were pretty deep embedded, which is why I hated them. They are not gone, but its almost as if they leveled out with the rest of my skin. I feel like I should give this a full month to see if it gets any better. They are not gone, but there is a difference. 

My tummy - again, the same as my thighs, although these ones are not quite leveled out just yet either. (My tummy however was the last place I started and I have been using it there for less time.)

Does this work? In my own opinion , it is definitely doing something. Do I think that it is a quick fix? No, I think that this is something you are going to have to add to your routine. It is going to take time. It's not a magic wand where you rub here and there once or twice and instantly resemble what you did when you were 18.  But I do believe that with diligent and steady use, you will receive the results you are after.  

BUT DO NOT DO THIS BEFORE YOU HAVE TO GO OUT! You cannot apply makeup for 12 hours after. This is best done on a weekend!

If you wanna give it a shot, I urge you to grab yourself one. Get yours here

Sunsella Stainless Steel Vegetable Steamer Review.

Another great product to tell you all about. This time I am talking about a stainless steel vegetable steamer.

We eat a lot of veggies in this house, and our main vegetation of choice is broccoli and cauliflower.

Normally, I just stick them in a pot and boil them in water till done.

Do you ever notice when vegetables are cooked boiled in water that they lose their flavor? Also, that it seems they are soggy. I prefer mine not to be that way, so I was happy when I was sent this steamer "Free" In exchange for my unbiased review.


First things first "Looks." It's bright and shiny and very much resembles some kind of cook space ship right out of the package. It is made from stainless steel so it will not rust.
The package didn't come with instructions, and I was at a loss on how to open it.

I have never seen, nor used a steamer before. I tried twisting it "lightly - it looked sharp and I was nervous I might cut my fingers." I tried looking for an edge to pop it open. At a loss of my pride, I watch my husband spread it apart at the top with ease. It really is that simple. Put a thumb on either side and pull it open like a flower. (This is for those out there like me, who ignore the simple things and always try the hard things first.)
Opening it up, there is a bar with a ring (like a grenade) I didn't know what this was for until I used it.  (it's for ease of lifting it out of the pot)

This steamer only works if you are using a pot with a lid. It will not work in an open environment.
You place it in your chosen pot/pan (it fits a number of sizes) Fill your pot  about an inch thick with water. (Or until the water reaches the bottom of the steamer - there are feet that keep it from the bottom of the pan.)

Took about 15 minutes to steam broccoli enough for 5. It was the perfect texture! Not watery. I noticed instantly the difference in taste.

I also have used this to steam the flour tortillas we use for fajita night. Microwaving them always made the edges hard, but now, it's like getting them from my favorite Mexican restaurant MiCasitas.

All in all, this is a cute little steamer, easy to store and works exactly as it should. I have used it a total of 4 times so far, and never once has it failed me. I would definitely suggest this gadget for your list of kitchen ware to get! Which you can get yours clicking the link Stainless Steel Veggie Steamer
Also check out the awesome company that makes these. www.sunsella.com

Bean Boozled Challenge Completed

I never in my life thought I could ever feel legitimate fear for a simple thing like candy - until now.

I laughed when Erin came to me with the Bean boozled challenge. Thinking - "How bad can it be?"

• There are 10 sets of 2 different flavors (which look exactly the same.) Only - one is a good flavor and one is a horrific flavor.
• You have to go through the flavors - Who ever spits out the most - loses.
• If you both spit out the same amount of jelly beans - then there is a sudden death round. Aka, you use the little spinner that comes with the box.
• Wanna play? Get yours here:  Bean Boozled
• Favors are as follows
• Tutti Fruitti or Stinky socks (It really tastes like stinky socks.)
• Peach or Barf (Again - It really tastes as it is stated.)
• Licorice or skunk spray (This is terrible - hard to breathe, feels like you just got gassed)
• Juicy Pear or booger. (Tastes like jalapenos)
• Caramel corn or Moldy cheese
• Coconut or baby wipes (tastes like soap.)
• Chocolate pudding or canned dog food (Tastes like wet dog food smells!)

We forgot 2 flavors during our turn - but decided against a redo

• Lime or Lawn clippings
• Buttered popcorn or rotten eggs.

I without a doubt, as I sit writing this- feel sick to my stomach. I am queasy, and I feel a little like I might still hurl. That challenge is definitely not something to laugh at. It's hard. Especially to those with weak stomachs. "I warn you ahead of time - if you decide to want to try."

You can watch here if you want to see my daughter Erin and I complete her challenge.

Zester - Best Premium Zester Grater- Product Review

I am actually excited to write this review. I typically get a lot of really cool products to try free for review, and I have come across a lot of good ones. Today however, I get to tell you about a really great product.

Calling all cooks! Or Chef wanna-be's like me. This Zester, by far - is the best one that I have ever held in my hands.  "I am a big fan of PROOF there for I will be attaching a video review as well - see it in action with your own eyes down below or click the link  http://youtu.be/y0CcN1o9Dp0"

I love to cook - I am always trying new recipes that I find on Pinterest and a lot of them call for the zest of lemons, limes. etc. I own a number of zesters (All currently in the trash bin, awaiting trash day.) I keep buying them, because none of them seem to work. 

You know the drill, you pull out your zester, you pull out a lemon and most of the rind gets caught up in all those little holes. You practically have to pound it on a cutting board just to get some off.

A recipe I use, calls for the rind of 2 limes. It ends up taking me 4 or 5 just to get the two teaspoons needed. Serious frustration! 

First thing I noticed when this baby arrived in the mail, was that it was shiny! For a cook in the kitchen, shiny kitchen wear is definitely an attraction. It's made from stainless steel. I also noticed that it came with a cover. (None of my other zesters were cool enough to come with a cover.) After popping that baby off, I knew the answer of why it comes with protection wear.

SHARP!

This baby is as sharp as a razor blade. I also noticed something different about this zester. The holes. The holes were bigger. Not too big that you are going to get clumps. But big enough that I felt like maybe JUST MAYBE, I wouldn't be wasting any limes/lemons anytime soon. 

It works like a charm. It worked so bad I couldn't help myself. I was zesting everything. I did waste some lemons and limes, (initially) But only out of excitement.  (I found use for it in my water infuser) so not a total waste. 

I have never in my life zested chocolate before. Why? Because I felt like it would waste the chocolate getting stuck in the holes. I wouldn't abuse chocolate like that. NOW, I tried it for the first time. Little beautifully zested flakes of chocolate decorated this mornings cocoa. 

I could go on and on, and the more I zest, the more I would. I would put money on it. I would bet the world that you would love this zester. Not a doubt in my mind. Not on this one. No one is paying me to say this, no one is holding a gun to my head. 

I with my whole entire heart back this baby up! It is worth the money. I did get this one free in exchange for an honest review. However, I will be buying a second. (In case I hadn't done dishes.)

Oh speaking of that. It is easy to clean - I wouldn't recommend a cloth. (it snags and tares.) I do not recommend a sponge either. I used a bottle brush. Worked like a charm. It is extremely sharp. I did accidentally cut myself so be careful. (I was silly enough to try to rub residue off with my fingers.

You can get yours here - Zester I do realize that some people may be thinking, I don't know. 13 bucks for a zester? But its worth it. You can spend 13 bucks now, and have a zester that works, or buy one for 4 or 5 dollars and have to buy another to replace it because it doesn't work well. I would get it!

I did get this zester for free - in exchange for my unbiased review. 

Turn back time

Tuesday morning - off to a rocky start. Whether it was bad peanuts or bad shrimp, or just bad luck, I have three darling little daughters occupying both bathrooms. "Food poisoning" That is what I am chalking it up to. Or at least, until I can call Dr. Garrett and she tells me something different. (They do not open until 8)
Right about now, I am not even sure we can make it 40 minutes in a car ride, efficiently.

Britt's birthday went off well. She opted out for a more family oriented get together. "Remember my rant of finding all the Alice stuff, only to be told she changed her mind?" Family oriented days are so much easier.
She did however request that her cake be homemade, and not bought. Took me 4 hours to figure out how to do the icing to make it look professional. (I cheated a little. - Used store bought icing.) It came out cute though, and she loved it - so that is what matters.

I do know that for her 16th birthday, she no doubt about it wants a "Sweet 16" At least I know in advance. I have a full year to save and plan. I really hope that I do not fail her. It seems to be important to her.

Two birthdays on the way - both back to back in May. My two youngest. Sigh ... time truly does just fly by.

Supposed to do BEAN BOOZLED today, I do not know how that is going to go, with the kids feeling icky. I think we might just have to push the pause button on that one.

Looking for a new editor. The one I hired to edit my newest work, backed out on me, after already having had it for a little over a month.
I am sure there are sites that will help me find someone.
Really does suck though. I had already paid her, and I was hoping to get my new book out this month. I guess sometimes though, things do not go as planned. It will be a little late is all.

Today is all about catching up! I need to get my ass in gear in photo editing. Which it is going well. I have those products to review, which most require a video, and I am anal retentive. It is going to take a while to do those videos. I also have house work, and some extra writing, a few bills to pay. etc.

Random Rant

You know, I am starting to realize, that I do not like this whole adult business.
Watching my nephew and his girlfriend last night, I was Awestruck. They are the same age I was when Nick and I got married. They are so carefree, and unburdened.

I miss that!

That picture up there is my husband and I.  I was 18 and he was 20.

Fast forward 15 years - and those carefree days have been replaced with stress inducing ones. Everything seemed so much easier back then, like anything was possible. What the hell happened?

It's like, one day you are on top of the world, (or felt like it.) and then you blink, and half your life is over.

I look at our three girls, they have their whole lives ahead of them. So many possibilities and the time to do something amazing! They are so young.
I really do think that I have a fear of getting older. My biggest issue in life, seems to be time. I just do not have enough of it. If only I could take Hermione Granger's time necklace and wind it back a bit, while still keeping my life as it is now. (I do not want to relive it all - I just want to stop aging.)

It's true you know - what old people say. That the older you get, the more time seems to be speeding up. It's terrifying.



On that note, I have some hair to tie up in pony tails, and some crackers and ginger ale  glasses to fill, and a Dr. to call.  I hope you all have a lovely day. Do something that makes you smile ... maybe try one of those things on your bucket list. xxDee

Maybe this isn't such a good idea - Also- That went better than I hoped for.

Baby food challenge!
Okay, so my daughter Erin got herself nominated to take the baby food challenge. Which I guess the premise behind it is where you choose some different kinds of baby food, blind fold your victim and shove it in their face -so-  they can guess the flavor. Who ever guesses the most flavors correctly WINS!

I do not know about any of you guys, but I do not spend a whole lot of time, sampling the baby food selections. I know however, after doing this --- I will definitely continue on my tradition of avoiding it like the plague. "With maybe one slight exception."



You can watch our "Mommy daughter - maybe we shouldn't have done this moment" below.

All in all, even thought at one point I about tossed my cookies, it was a fun moment I wouldn't take back for the world.


Today (Sunday.) I believe Sunday -- "I'm working on about 40 minutes of sleep." So time seems irrelevant. (Seriously thinking I might start sleeping in a separate room than Nick. I just cannot sleep past the snoring!)
It's a good day. Started early.
Today was my first ever "Green ramp." Welcome home shoot for a soldier and their family. I always get nervous. It never fails. Whether it's my first shoot or one of many, I still get my nerves rattled. I think it stems from fear, you know - the "What if's." What if I muck this up, What if the kids don't smile. What if they do not like to pose, or they are nervous in front of the camera, how do I get them out of their shell then?

LUCKILY and I thank my stars every single time I get to work with a family like this.
They knew what they wanted!
I absolutely adore that in a client. Someone who knows exactly what they want. Who has ideas, and input in general. It makes my job a thousand times easier.

I'm still in the process of waiting for the cards to upload to the computer, but a quick peek through on the camera while waiting. I am so excited. I see so many fantastic shots, that I just cannot wait to give them.

I am also thankful that she is so patient. I hate when I have to tell a client that it will be one to two weeks before they receive their photos. A lot of people want them, "That day, the next day, or that minute."
I do not think they realize how much time and effort "The editing stage." takes. I will settle on nothing less than perfect, so I take my time to make sure I am giving them the absolute best photo's I can.
Working on another 6 shoots as well, I was truly thankful that she said "No rush." I do not know if she would ever truly know my gratitude on that.

Now if only I could have burrowed a little of her patience! Upload time, is taking too long!

With a great early start to my day, I have hope for it to continue on well. My day today is mostly going to be a series of moments in preparation.

• Quick clean the house - so that I am free to be (Kids go back to school tomorrow!) First day back after spring break! I am so ready for this! 
• Make their lunches, so that I do not have to get up at 4:35 to make them in the morning. 
• Hopefully sneak in a nap
• prep video work for upcoming product reviews.
• Figure out what to make so that I can make a video to do product reviews. (They are mainly kitchen and cooking utensils.) 
• ETC. ugh, food lion. I cannot forget to run to the store for all the stuff I meant to pick up while grocery shopping. 

It's a short list, but each thing on that list is going to take me till the end of the day to get through. Now on to my next list ... 6 impossible things. (thankful for/reasons to smile)

• I am thankful Brittany is the legal age for babysitting. It was so "Less stressful." To get ready and go, without the hassle of having to trudge three kids from their sleep. "Thanks Britt bear!" 

I really do need to get a handle on the fact that Brittany is older now. I guess I could use that to my advantage while teaching her responsibility. I have got to stop being so over protective and realize that she can be home by herself and she is fully capable of watching her sisters for an hour or two.  I see this in writing. It's just - I haven't quite got a handle on it just yet. 

• I couldn't help but smile- nothing better than watching children's faces light up with such love and joy when they see their daddy/mommy for the first time in a long time. 

Thank you to all you service members out there for everything you do. Thank you. 

• I am thankful for coffee. More specifically the "Starbucks Vanilla Frappuccino" I got from the cold box at Food lion. I really do not think that I would/or will make it thought the day without coffee. 
• I smiled huge at the flashback which slapped me in the face during this mornings shoot. "It's a Bouge" Like Vogue, but with a B. Bouge in this case being "Bug." These two adorable blonde headed twins both pointing towards a bug for daddy to see. 

One Easter, Erin - she was 2 at the time, said that exact same thing. Exact same pronunciation. It was such a lovely moment to pop into mind.

• I'm thankful for Nick. There is nothing more amazing than just hanging out with your best friend in the entire world. I love our laughs, I love that we share so much to laugh about. I love to laugh. 
• BIGGEST SMILE ever when I just told Britt to get dressed. Because of her smile. I hate that she will know her gifts (but I am still going to wrap them whether she likes it or not.) But that big cheeky smile she had on her face, just melts your heart - completely. 

I guess this means, I better get off the computer (seeing how upload time is at 4 hours and 48 minutes until complete.) Get some of those things on my list knocked off. 

I hope anyone that came to spend a moment with me, has a lovely day. Do something that makes you smile! xxDee

*Edit* I apologize, I thought I hit publish before I left. Everything all done, except that nap. Have a great one everyone ((hugs))

Super Excited !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Super stoked today - Just signed into my Tomoson account, hoping for one or two items to review and I got slammed with the mother load! (Pure excitement!)

Anyone who reads me, or has read me - KNOWS - that Dee, (me) Loves herself some free stuff.

It isn't just about getting free stuff though, I genuinely love the whole try it out process. I do not enjoy when I find things that I will have to leave a not so good review for, But am, no doubt about it, over the moon pleased when I find something worth reviewing - and passing on.
A few of these upcoming reviews have giveaways that I will be hosting to US residents. (Sorry to those international, I cannot control that part.) So keep an eye out, this way if any or all of the things that I "Blog review." Catch your eye, you can have a chance of winning for yourself

Please keep in mind before entering a contest "That." I will be asking you for a PO. Box or mailing address to pass to the company so that they may ship you your prize. I will give you an email so that we can do it privately,  If you are not comfortable with that, that is A-Ok!

On top of blog reviews - they have added a youtube button to it. So now, not only do I blog about it, I have to make videos using their products. I am both, excited and nerve racked about that idea. I more so enjoy being BEHIND the camera, not so much in front of it. So I will have to finagle my way around that somehow so that I do not have to be in the shot. Maybe certain angles. lol.

My kid also roped me into a few video challenges, she got nominated, and somehow I am her guinea pig.

Will be doing the .... Bean boozled challenge - Which is a gross jelly belly bean flavored torture game. I guess there are five section and there are two a peice that look exactly alike, only one will be something like "Popcorn flavored" and the other that looks just like it will be "Rotten egg flavored" etc.  You "quote on quote - " Choose your destiny, hoping like hell you get the good flavored bean. Person who spits out the least  WINS!
If you wanna join in, or just want to gross yourself or your friends out - You can get yours Here - Bean Boozled This will be done on video, and right about now, I am just hoping I do not spew on camera.

We will also be doing ...  The baby food challenge. Simple enough, we have a total of 4-8 different things of baby food. Blind folded or eyes closed, we are to be fed a spoonful. We then, have to guess the flavor. (You know) I am uncertain about this one too -- Mainly because, every video I have seen of babies trying new baby foods, look like kids tasting something icky. I never really fed my kids baby food, they went from boobs to table food. So this is going to be new.

I honestly have no idea what else this kid might get me into, but I figure. Your kids are only young for a little while. Eventually they will grow up and do their own thing, leaving you behind to watch them tare their way into the world.
I will take every chance I get to spend time with them, even if that means torture!

I realize I have been away from my blog for a bit, and I really do feel bad about that. Life, just gets in the way. I've been working. A few shoots came up, so editing pictures takes up a lot of my time.

I do have a thankful list/ things that made me smile list ... I haven't stopped finding things to make life feel worth it.

• 1. I am thankful that I have children who know themselves. There is nothing that I have found that gives me more pride, than watching my children grow into themselves. I guide them, but they have molded themselves. Watching who they are becoming, I feel like - If I never accomplish anything else in my life, I did one thing - ABSOLUTELY RIGHT

• 2. This morning at Chik-fil-a I couldn't help but smile, watching my daughter Avery flirt and blush with a little boy in the play room. "She was red- ear to ear" But all smiles. It was really quite adorable to see. 

• 3. I am thankful nick showed me how to open that veggie steamer I have to review. I could not figure it out - and I really didn't want to look stupid on camera. It does not come with directions. I was on the verge of googling, when he simply and quickly went (Vlooop) Open! Now I cannot stop opening and shutting it. It's shiny metal, so it to me feels like what I imagine, the matrix opening up would be like. 

• 4. I'm thankful for pickles and mustard! That stuff is delicious! 

• 5. I smiled watching my dog Marley chase his tail. It's simple, but for some reason. his excitement just melted my heart. He rarely chases his tail. 

• 6. Seriously NO JOKE, Just smiled. I had posted on my facebook (While checking in at breakfast) Hold on -- let me see if I can copy and paste. 

Me: I'm not a huge fan of Chick-fil-A (i don't eat their lunch foods) but I freaking LOVE their chicken mini's and hash browns dipped in honey. Enjoying breakfast out with the girls before work.

My daughter Britt:  

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  Brittany Marie Chattaway That was very enjoyable

  
  

• Either way - I laughed, because the kid is 15, and she is just so darned prim and proper. So logical. It was just the way she said it. She just cracks me up. 

BONUS THANKFUL FOR 

I am truly thankful for Brittany. Everyone says that about their kids I know, but in all reality.  I owe my life to her. I was on drugs and spiraling down a dark path when I got preggers with her. She legit saved my life. 

And for her to turn out the way she has , she is so easy. Such an easy going kid. 

Back story  

We get so irritated with band. I need to be punctual. I need things to be done, that are said that they will be done. AKA. If you have a specific date, do not change it on me, because we have already rearranged whatever to be able to make that date. 

Mind you THIS YEAR has been better than any other year re guarding that. But naturally when they change something "Nick and I" would bitch. Ugh, F-this, you're not doing band next year. ETC. 

Well- apparently this kid thought we meant it. 

So this morning at breakfast, we ask her. What do you want for your birthday? Her birthday is on Monday, and she is so picky, that I need a legit answer. 

She then pulls out this folder, this power point -type presentation COMPLETELY READY to make her case. (I really think she should be a lawyer) 

She says - I do not need gifts, I just want to be able to be in band next year. 

Talk about break your heart! 

Of course we had the whole - we would never take anything away from you that you truly love, that we just say that occasionally out of frustration. That, of course she will be taking band next year because we know how much it means to her. 

It was the sacrifice that she was willing to give for something she really wanted. (She is going to do just fine in the world.) I am truly not looking forward to college days, because I will miss her. But I know for a fact, she has what it takes to make it! 

Needless to say - because we told her she was going to band, she no longer has to give anything up, tomorrow we will be taking her gift shopping. 

Like I mentioned above, she is a very specific kid. Anal to the T! She wants what she wants and will accept nothing less. 

She didn't want us to go get the wrong thing. 

"I am going to miss the presents wrapped stage." But I guess this is the age where it is no longer about wrapping paper and bows and party hats. 

I went on a rant ... MY BAD! But that is what I am thankful for. I am thankful for the person my daughter is becoming. 

I have this huge fear of death. Not the dying. Dying doesn't scare me. It is the not being here if my children ever need me. I think Britt, she is one of those that will forge through anything. That fear is softened a bit, still there, but less. 

Well, I am off to see what is in my fridge for supper, so I can use one of these little gadgets I will be reviewing.  It's been rather stormy here, the picture up top is my sky last night.

Hope each and every one of you have a great day/night. xxDee

Thank goodness it's Friday!

Awe, the sweet smell of Friday. Gotta love it! Maybe because today's Friday is fragrantly laced with the sweet smell of my new favorite tea. "Pineapple Chamomile."

Woke up on what I assume is the right side of the bed, because I feel at peace. Holding a warm cup of tea in my hands while enjoying the cool crisp breeze from the window. (I just feel nice) - and cold. I feel cold. I seriously think opening the windows was a bad call. It is not quite warm yet.

84 degrees! That is what the day is calling for. Spring has arrived! Bringing with it the beautiful shade of green. Sigh .... If only the most dominate shade of green wasn't a layer of pollen decorating every inch of my house. Yes, I really do think, opening the windows was a bad call. I'll be cursing myself for it later when I am cleaning. (also) When I am sneezing. Seeing that pollen dusts its beauty on every surface in sight- Be it inside or outside, is a sure sign that spring allergies are on their way!

Honey! That is what they say wards off allergies. Local honey. Today is also grocery shopping day, so here is hoping I remember honey, and also that it really does the trick. "They say-" Local honey helps deter allergies because it is made from local bee's. Which means that they have taken what they needed from the local plant life, thus creating a sort of "Bee flu shot - for allergies." I typically use honey to sweeten my hot teas, so this will work out perfectly.

LENT IS OVER BABY!
That underlined, caps overloaded sentence right there-- brings me to number one on my thankful/things that made me smile "list"! 40 days, that is how long lent is. 40 days of pizza commercial torture. 40 days of smelling delicious fries cooking up the street at McDonalds. 40 days of longing for an eggroll.
I could go on here -- But I won't.
It's over and I am thankful. I never really realized just how much not being able to have something, makes you want it - that much more!

It's almost Easter. Tomorrow is our last Chorus practice before the Easter sunrise. I'm a little nervous. I love to sing, I really do. However- we are a small group. 7 in total. It's not the singing that is bothering me. It's the standing up in front of everyone and not being able to blend in, or hide behind someone. It's all - up front and center. I am a little uncomfortable with that.

Is it just me? Or does anyone else notice that this year is just trucking on by, full speed? I feel like I blinked, and missed most of it already. It's already April. A hop and a skip from summer, and summer zooms by, which means - A new school year is just around the corner, (Halloween) comes next "I'm excited about that part" Then Christmas, and then a new year. I REALIZE it's 9 months away, But nine months goes fast when you're not pregnant.

"I'm leaving pregnant ladies out of this, because when you are all knocked up, it seriously seems like forever for those months to pass -so you can get that thing out!" I know, I remember.

I think I am having issues with time. I feel my mortality. I feel my lack of time. I know that could be because I am losing friends left and right (death doesn't care about age.) I just do not feel like I have enough time to do what I need to do. "I do not even know what I need to do." I think that fear comes from, not knowing what I want in life, not having reached a milestone where I can be content and proud of an accomplishment (other than my kids, I have great fucking kids!) I just feel like. I haven't done in my life what I should yet. I feel - Unfinished. There is something out there calling me, I do not know what it is, and I am scared I won't find it, figure it out before my time is up.
I think that is why I am freaking out about time. It's just slipping by.

Well - It's Friday. (and I resist the urge to sing that annoying Friday song.) It's been years since I have heard it, yet every Friday ... there it is. Nipping at my brain cells.
Friday for me means - Quick clean everything so I don't have to during the weekend. (Plus) This marks the beginning of spring break. I want everything to be in place and in order, that way the kids and I and whom ever crosses our path, are free to cause a little trouble.

Thanks for stopping by and sharing a moment in your day with me. I hope you have a great day. A great night, and a great weekend ahead! xxDee

Birthday woes - (Insert "Help Needed!" sign.)

Never in my life have I known the frustration of birthday planning -- Until now!

Teens, I tell ya!

It used to be so simple. It used to be (Choose a place for us to take you out for supper. Choose a way to spend your day, be it a trip to the zoo, aquarium, movies, etc. Followed by coming home for cake and presents.) I'm thinking that I had it way too easy. My kids were never really into parties. Birthday's were more family oriented. 

Until now!

Brittany wants a party. A real party. "First." She wanted an (Alice in wonderland) themed party. So instantly -- seeing how she sprung this on me on such short notice. I start Pinteresting, googling, etc. Looking for anything and everything to put together an Alice in wonderland party quick, and on a budget. 

I got it all figured out, links saved (that night - would check the account and see how much I had to play with for decorations, etc.) I found some pretty awesome ideas, and lots of stuff was on Ebay! 

She gets home, and it has all changed. "She no longer wants an Alice in wonderland party." It has been done a lot this year already, so she wants something different. Because NO ONE wants to attend and Alice party when they have already attended three already. 

At this moment --I am thankful I didn't make any purchases!

So I ask her what she wants. She doesn't know. All she knows is, she wants it to be awesome and to have games!

Games! Do you have any idea how hard it is to figure out games? Everything that I have googled on games for teens, she thinks is all lame! What kind of games do 15 year old's play? Any of you out there have any ideas? I am drawing a blank! 

Things that are definitely out!

• No movies. She wants to interact. Not waste her time sitting through a movie. 
• No paint balling, because everyone got hurt last time. 
• No mini gulf, because it is boring and she gets frustrated with the ball. 

So far, those are the only things that she has mentioned not wanting. 

Things that she wants...

• (around 9 people -- 14 including me, her dad, and sisters.) At home. 
• Fun games. 
• No lame decorations. Nothing childish.

Sigh ... so you can see where I am at a loss. I have 12 days to come up with and have prepared something awesome for her, and have absolutely nothing to go off of to help me decide. 

According to her Pinterest - she likes the ideas of floating lights, color throws and anything bright and funky! 

I kind of like the idea of that color throw. Googling the price of the powder colors - eh I dont know. (anyone out there know how to make color powder, like they use at color runs?) 

Maybe if all else fails, I can hang a huge canvas outside, hit up the dollar store for some large white T-shirts, and grab every kind of washable color paint I can find. Maybe let them paint that canvas with themselves during a Paint color fight. Using water guns or they can just use huge paint brushes to splatter it on each other and it. (I would have loved that as a kid!)

If it goes into the night or until it gets dark, maybe they can have a creepy (hide in seek) game in the woods behind my house. (but then.) I watch too many horror movies, and my luck some kidnapper will be out there watching and waiting and that is really not something I want happening on my watch. 

I have an idea on the setting for the party, just not the darned games! I am guessing pin the tail on the donkey is out. LOL. She does really love harry potter and Anime stuff. Maybe an Anime themed something, except I don't know the first thing about Anime.  I guess I have my work cut out for me. 

Wish me luck! I will need it on this one. 

Have a great day everyone xxDee

Scar Gel Review

As we all know, or at least those of you out there who stop and share a moment of your day with me do. "Is." I love free stuff. I am a sucker for free, whether I need it or not.

I am a huge "Cheer leading fan" of Tomoson. You can find out about them here. Tomoson, maybe even join me in the getting awesome cool stuff for free world. "Almost free." You have to provide an unbiased review.


I saw this scar gel and instantly wanted to try it. I am no Girly, girl by any means ... I have some scrapes and scars from a life lived to the max. Or at the very least, lived not very carefully.

Right off the bat, the first few things that I had noticed about this stuff was -
Look, and Smell and texture.
It is brown in color. More like caramel colored.
and
It smells like "What reminds me of soy sauce." Or that sunless self tanner you can buy.  The smell itself fades, its only at first that you can really even smell it. That again, is only if you are like me and sniffing it.
It comes out rather quick with each pump. It's watery in texture, sometimes small clumps accompany a squirt, but for the most part, its a thin watery like liquid. Light on the skin. You can feel it after putting it on, but after awhile, you cannot tell that it is there.

I used this stuff on four types of scars.

• 1st. scar - (a deep indented one on my forehead.) It's 28 years old (old scar.)
• 2nd. scar- (A scar on my arm left from a burn during cooking.) about 6 months old. 
• 3rd. scar- (stretchmark scars from being preggers.)
• 4th scar- (I had cut my leg shaving and decided it was a perfect chance to see if I could end up scarless.) When  I started applying the scar treatment, it was about 4 days old.
• 5th scar- (Red mark left from acne) (About 2 weeks old.)

1st. trial (forehead) This scar has been a part of my life since I was five years old. While I have gotten used to it, and do not hate it - I was hopeful that it would remove it. "Keep in mind" This is a very old scar and it is very deeply indented. 

During the first week or so, I noticed a sensitivity to the area. I do not know if this is simply because I was rubbing the cream too roughly against my skin or not. 

This scar, I did not notice any difference or any change in it. 

2nd. trial. (Burn scar) This scar was pretty level with the rest of my skin. Not really an indent. Just an ugly scar. I again noticed a sensitivity. (I chalked it up to rubbing the same spot- everyday) It was a dark reddish scar. Quite visible. (today) You cannot see that scar unless you look very close. I do believe that it works on burn scars. 

3rd. trial. (Stretch marks.) While stretch marks are a totally different kind of scar, I thought, what the heck. Let's give it a shot! While the difference is not drastic by any means, I can still see my pregnancy battle scars. I do feel like they have lessened slightly in appearance. 

4th trial. (Shaving wound.) Please listen to the bottle, do not apply this stuff to an open wound. I applied it that very night, and it does sting quite badly! I waited a few days after that, and I applied it as my scab was healing. You cannot see the ding/knick on my leg. I have other scars on my legs from shaving. I do believe that this stuff works if you apply it soon enough. 

5th trial. (Acne marks) I do not typically get pimples often, but when I do-- they are big and they leave marks. (mainly because I do not leave them alone -- I pick at them.) I had a huge red dot on my chin from where I futzed with a pimple badly and left a huge mark on my face. (typically) when I do this, those red marks stay for about 4 - to - 6 months. Sometimes longer, depending on what I have done to myself. I applied this stuff to my face, not really expecting anything, but definitely hoping. To my surprise, it only took about 4 days for that red mark to leave. 

Over all - I wouldn't recommend it for long standing scars. Or deep indented scars. (Maybe if you just got your stitches taken out - sort of like my shaving incident) It would work better. 

But for acne scars, or scars of a lesser degree. I whole heartedly recommend it! With people out there with acne scars who feel insecure because of it, I suggest this stuff! 

If you are interested you can learn more about it Here Or if you want to try it, you can buy yours Buy Scar Gel

 

Thanks for stopping by: xxDee

Change is coming - I can feel it.

Okay, At first, I wasn't sure how today was going to go. "In fact, I had a whole other blog started on why-" But I don't want my day to be gloomy. I also do not want to put that sort of energy out into the world. Also- I am just done with the situation.
I just need to learn that some people out there are so full of hatred and discontentment in their own lives, that they will do anything to disrupt and hurt yours. Misery loves company is a saying that is very much true in this case.

BUT!

It's like my friend Rhonda said "You can choose to let it grind you down, or you can choose to let go and walk away."
I choose "Let go!" Be the bigger person, take the higher path. I am walking away.

Today turned out not to be so bad, well - I should say, today is looking up.

Thankful List .... my six impossible things

• Booked a photography job today. So I have something to look forward to. Something to keep my mind busy. Busy is good. Busy is what I need. 
• Enjoyed a good walk with Chris today, had lovely conversation. Kept my mind off things for those four miles. I am very thankful for that.
• Today is only one day away from Friday. I cannot wait until then, Friday-marks the beginning of spring break. 
• I'm thankful to have true friends. (Jeri, Kerri, Lilly, Sharron, Shandee, Rhonda and Kim) come to mind. (There are others- if you are not listed I apologize)  I will never be able to thank the true friends in my world enough for helping me through some of the things life has thrown at me. 
• I am thankful all the mess with the wreck is officially cleared up! The van is towed off, the rental car is taken back ... just us and the Cadenza. (I'm just glad its over - feel better-able to move on now.)
• I'm thankful Easter is this weekend, I am so ready for all the holiday stuff to just be over. 

I've been shuffling through Pinterest a lot today- looking for good poses. I have never shot a "Welcome home." For a soldier's family. This will be my first, which she is very well aware of that fact. I am very excited. Most of my work time is spent with beautiful ladies, finally I get to branch out a little. (I am sure I have mentioned wanting to branch out in other blog posts.) (Keep in mind, I really do love shooting the ladies as well.) I find that shooting the ladies, is a lot less stressful. Maybe because that is mainly what I do, I have grown accustomed to it I suppose. I know that I will capture what she is looking for. That is what I do! It's just - you know, first day jitters. haha. I am beyond thrilled though. 

Told you guys last time, that I was going on a mission (I will be damned if this spring break-I don't force those girls of mine into a photo shoot.) lol Either way, I found lots of random stuff that I will be putting on kids, dogs, hedgehogs, cats ... I just wanna shoot something, anything.
Found some cool ideas on Pinterest. (Chalk) Who knew chalk on concrete could be such a great idea. I have chalk, so we shall see!


On another topic - for those of you moon lovers out there. There is a new blood moon on April 4th. I cannot wait. Last blood moon, I got some pretty good shots. (The photo up top is one of mine-not great but I am still proud of it.) I hope this time, the moon actually looks red. Last time, eh - not so much. Maybe it was just my area. Superstitions say that blood moons are an omen for big changes coming. In my case :: Fingers crossed that it brings something good my way. There is change coming, I can feel it - whether it is by my own hand or fate.

Well- It is just after noon, I am thinking. I would like to do that whole girl things. You know, put on make up, brush and maybe even fix my hair. Get dressed in real clothes, not just bum around the house clothes. Nick and the kids have seen me slumping it up here lately. It's time I got myself back into gear.

I hope each and everyone of you who happened to see this today - has a good day. xxDee